Monday, January 24, 2011

Hungry for Love

Why do boys thinking toots are so funny?  Girls get embarrassed, and boys just L-A-U-G-H!
Ethan cracks us up-he even pretend burps because he thinks it's hilarious!  Silly boys, they are cut from different fabric than us girls.
: )

I haven't "worked out" (or worked for that matter..) in a super-long time.  We let our gym membership go a year or two after Mary Claire was born (hmm..was that diabetes' fault too?).  It has been too long-don't bother doing the math!  So, today I wandered into a local gym and told them I was interested in joining.  I've been working up the nerve to go in for at least a year.  I need it, but I get nervous, and it's been so long.  (and you can tell)

Anyway, I filled out some information, took the tour, found out the pricing, decided it was okay, and Then.  He wanted me to sign a two-year contract, and I just couldn't.  Maybe it was because I hadn't discussed it with Ches (or even told him I was going!), or because it was $1591 all together.  Cough-cough.  If they wouldn't tell us this, it would go so much better for the salesmen!  So, I did the hardest thing I could do.  I told him no.  Just No.  I said I'd sign for a year, but not two.  (I had to pay off the last gym over a contract, Not.  Fun.)  I had to walk away from that beautiful place (with a private women's gym-extra $10/month, and tanning, and yoga, and spinning, and kids' classes, and saunas and pools, and those machines I dearly miss, and I'm not kidding, it was all I could do not to get on them-my body knows what it needs!)  I'm not saying I won't go back, but I really should talk to Ches before I blow money on Me Time. : )  and lock us in for two years!  and maybe he'll call me back?  is it like buying a car?  'Cause I'm pretty good at that!  ..Guess I won't be meeting my friend at yoga in the morning. : (

I was on the way to my dentist's office for a cleaning today, when I heard this precious song at a stop light.  I always sing the chorus, and the song has been out for a long time, but I really heard it today. God has good timing.

Here's a youtube video with the lyrics, if you want to hear the amazing song!
(if you are reading later than Jan. 25th, you'll have to pause the music down on the playlist at the bottom of this site, or they'll both play!)  I'm turning it off for a couple days! : )

If not, here are the words:
Sanctus Real - “Lead Me”

I look around and see my wonderful life
Almost perfect from the outside
In picture frames I see my beautiful wife
Always smiling
But on the inside, I can hear her saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

I see their faces, look in their innocent eyes
They're just children from the outside
I'm working hard, I tell myself they'll be fine
They're independent
But on the inside, I can hear them saying...

“Lead me with strong hands
Stand up when I can't
Don't leave me hungry for love
Chasing dreams, but what about us?

Show me you're willing to fight
That I'm still the love of your life
I know we call this our home
But I still feel alone”

So Father, give me the strength
To be everything I'm called to be
Oh, Father, show me the way
To lead them
Won't You lead me?

To lead them with strong hands
To stand up when they can't
Don't want to leave them hungry for love,
Chasing things that I could give up

I'll show them I'm willing to fight
And give them the best of my life
So we can call this our home
Lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

Father, lead me, 'cause I can't do this alone

He realizes that we can't leave our family hungry for love, while we are out working hard, and even helping others.  We need to be led, and our family does too-I can't leave my kids hungry for love, while I work at the school or make dinner for the priests!  This is not lost on me.  Precious words, and oh-precious times are HERE.

Lead me, O LORD, in your righteousness because of my enemies-make straight your way before me. Psalm 5:8

2 comments:

Jen Snow said...

I love that song! :) It's such a reminder of the effects we have on those in our lives. And ~ I think that you are fine just as your are...gym membership or not. ;)

Holly said...

Thanks, girl! : ) Yep, I tend to get lost in trying to help everyone else. Gotta keep it together! (and in the right order!)
And..thanks. I still long to be on those machines. Weird, or not. : )